It's been a while

I notice that I havn't updated in a while. I think I've just been trying to juggle the household while discovering in January the most wonderful news: We're pregnant and are due in September!

I've wanted to have a child of my own for a long time now. Pretty much as soon as Boyfriend and I met we knew that we would want to have a child together and started trying. I knew I would have trouble with this as my ex husband and I tried for  a few years without getting close. So, last year we tried a few clomid cycles, had one chemical pregnancy and thats it. So, I spoke to the fertility specialists and they agreed to put me on the waiting list for IVF. Well, I needn't have worried! It took us over a year but we fell pregnant naturally, without help and things have gone very well! I'm also a Type One diabetic,so this needs special attention but other then that I've had a very normal pregnancy so far.

In terms of the other things that are going on at home, Tricksy just finished his first set of school holidays for the year. Poor thing, we decided to have his teeth looked at while he was on holiday and because he's very anxious about anything medical and being touched, we had to organise a general anaesthetic appointment to get this done. That was a very full on day for all of us. He required restraining and he's grown since the last time we needed to do this so it was a lot more difficult. Boyfriend and I took turns and with me being 17 weeks pregnant, it was hard. But we used a pre-medication to help sedate him so we could get him into the OR and then they used the GA. They removed two baby teeth and a baby molar that was being eaten into my a adult molar and BOY! That must have been causing him a fair amount of pain. A few days after this appointment it was like having a different boy in the house. He was attentive, engaged and trying to engage. He's using more of his word, echoing more and just (most of the time) a pleasure to be around. He's been a little terror this week due to massive changes in his usual routine, but we're hoping that will settle down once his after school carers (IE grandparents) come home from their three week holiday.

In terms of being step-parent, well, one of the things that really gets my goat is that fact that there is little recognition for the energy that goes in to being a parent. It's like this for all parents and I'm beginning to notice it myself. I don't work and THANK GOD because otherwise I would be a head case. I'd be exhausted more then I already am and I'd have time, ever. Stay at home parents don't sit around on their asses all day. It's not an easy job, even when the kids ARE at school. That just means that there is more time to get things done. I clean the house, parent the child, ensure that our child's needs will be met every day. When Tricksy IS home, he needs constant supervision so I can't sit and read a book while he plays because often he will play for a few minutes and run off to find some other fun activity and it usually involves water! As any parent of a toddler will attest, its exhausting. The difference here is Tricksy is 7.

I've been thinking a lot about how things will change with the introduction of a second child into our house. For me, for Boyfriend and mines relationship and for Tricksy. He will go from being an only child (in this house, he has a baby sister overseas) to having a live in baby taking my time from me. I've slowly been sitting and discussing this with Boyfriend to try to make the transition easier but in all honesty? We can't know how he will react until Sticky Bun (that's her/his name for now lol!) arrives.

Anyway, that's enough rambling from me.

love and light to you all x